ADAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!! (feelin' good. ha ha ha)

omg omg omg omg omg. My sould almost died tonight.
So, I am an American Idol freak, it's basically in my top list of shows, I've been watching it since I was about twelve, I guess.

Last night, my favourite, Adam Lambert, sang a song called "Feelin' Good". All along, I've been saying he reminds me of one of my favourite bands, the amazing British band Muse, and I have held to that opinion strongly. The version of the song he sang last night was DEFINITELY taken from the version of "feeling good" that Muse sings (and not the original or the Michael Bublé version.) I swear, look up his performance on youtube, and then listen to the Muse version, and you can definitely tell.

Anyway, it was an amazing performance. I almost jizzed in my pants. (LOL)
He was basically the frontrunner of the contest and then, tonight, he was in the bottom three!!!!!!!!
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH AMERICA JUST BECAUSE HE WAS AMAZING DOESN'T MEAN YOU DON'T VOTE FOR HIM, IT MEANS YOU VOTE MOOOOORRRREEEEE!!!!!

however, I could have seen this coming. my unlucky number is five. I hate the number, it terrifies me. a lot.
and last night, he was the fifth performer of the top five. also, taylor hicks performed tonight, and he won the fifth season of AI. Jamie foxx performed because he was their mentor last night due to his performance in Ray, which he won the Oscar for in 2005!!!!!

I was about ready to pee myself. my heart hasn't pounded so anxiously for a contestant since Constantine didn't make it in the fourth season. (interesting note, Connie also sang My funny Valentine, the song that gave Matt the boot tonight.)

Luckily, Adam was safe. (Hallelujah). and rock is next week. guess who will be on top again? hee hee hee.

i just want Danny Gokey gone. even though my best friend loves him to pieces, I keep strong in my non-love for him. (I however, have managed to bring her over to the dark side and acknowledge that Adam is sexxxxxxxxyyyyyyyyy. ha ha)

I love you Adam!
America, snap to your friggin' senses!!!

she's baaaaaack ;D (blubb?!)

there's country music going on from the speakers in the computer next to me, and it's driving me insane. i really don't like country music. i try to be open to all types of music, but some just can't seem to endear themselves to my brain. maybe it's sad, but i don't feel sad about it, so i'll just live with my tried and true classical, rock and pop music genres. and techno, i have this addiction to techno music.
today, in honour of trying to let go some of my anal-retentiveness about grammar and also in honour of e.e. cummings, a great poet i enjoy figuring out, i am not using any capital "i"s and not capitalising the first letter of each sentence, or proper nouns; a sacrifice my pinky fingers and the shift keys are just going to have to make. oh well ;)
sometimes, i try to think of what i am going to write about before i start typing the blog. i should really just give up on this unless i already have something to write about, because it always just ends up going off on some random tangent.
sooooooo. there was a gigantic thunderstorm yesterday. the kids freaked out, it was hilarious, and kept thinking there would be a tornado (although, in all fairness, it was nearly perfect conditions for a tornado). one even thought we would have a hurricane. (too bad we live a long way away from anything resembling a body of water, buddy)
this unfortunately ruined chances for going out with friends to eat sushi, something i like to enjoy and don't get to too often.
but, there was a silver lining! (and considering the sky was REALLY dark, we needed it...)
my friend invited me to a fall out boy concert, for free, ride included.
YESSSSSSS.
fob is one of those bands that have managed to endear their music to my brain. i love their music, i love their lyrics, and i love patrick stump(h). ashlee simpson's lucky i haven't murdered her yet, and got away with it (ha ha, if anyone has listened to the track 'murder' on 'bittersweet world' by her, please laugh with me. if you haven't, read the lyrics and then chuckle along)
so that totally brightened me up a bit.
and then i got to work on my story by candlelight. writing by candlelight is an interesting experience, and i would do it again, but preferably when i also have the option to turn the lights on whenever i want, since the power was out from 4:15 pm sat. to 1:30 am sun.
speaking of music, i am making a soundtrack for said story. it's hilarious (well, not the soundtrack, it's just good) because i listen to my ipod while i write, and i just write down songs i think would fit to the plot/story. unfortunately, i want to put lots of songs on it, but they don't fit the story :'(
i am looking forward to finishing this playlist up soon (which also means finishing the story up soon too!) i know someone else is too (hee hee) and that playlist is all part of the package (bet you weren't expecting that one, were you? muah ha ha).
i'm finishing this blog now...so that i can escape the carrie underwood playlist that's been on repeat for hours as i leave the room

it's a beautiful day

I have found that creative urge again. Normally lost beneath the covers and reclaimed during the shower, that creative urge to write.
An urge so powerful, my mind is making up sentences paragraphs before my poor pencil can write them. an urge so powerful it keeps me up to obscene hours when I must wake up early. So powerful it meakes me stop eating, drinking, watching TV, sleeping or facebooking. The urge that caused a 97% essay, multiple novels in childhood and a blog for the world to see. An urge so powerful, in fact, that it could have defeated both the Trojan and Greek armies and claimed Helen for itself. Twice. (Oh, and while also kicking Chuck Norris' blackbelt ass.)

Recently I was in a bit of a slum. My life seemed danerously monotonous, tiring and life-draining.
Then something shoved my brain and fixed it!
Yay!

I returned to a project I am doing for a friend. I am writing a piece of fiction. (BTW, Friend, if you're reading this, you should comment, b/c I like your opinion and you add sunshine to my day. Hint: you're male and European and I am writing this fictitious screenplay for you. You know who you are.)

So the story is surprising me. It's turning out pretty good, and the plot amazes me. I don't even remember making it. I didn't know my brain oculd come up with something so workable and prospectively amazing...I swear someone else took over my brain and gave me all these ideas (not gloating here, just stupefied...).

So it makes me pretty happy.
And now I have to get back to writing.

oh my god I'm going to strangle something soon....

sooooo, I've basically spent all day searching for a very tiny, and normally rather expensive memory stick. It's not that there's anything important saved on it that I need at the moment, it's that I need to save something important on it at some near-future date, and if I don't have it now, I won't have it then!!!!!! grrrrrrr.....

I have turned the whole house upside down. I have offered cash rewards to the little children if I find it. I have called my parent's house to see if it's there (which I already knew it wasn't, but , what the heck).

I found the cap for it, which I had dropped on the ground weeks ago (and because the cap is clear and the carpet was white, it was nigh impossible to find), but what the hell good is the cap without the thing it caps!!!!! God sure has a sense of humour.

And it's not like I lose things all the time. Normally everyone else loses everything, and I find it. So it would be Murphy's Law that the one time I lose something, I can't find it.

I don't know where I'm going with this other than that I need to rant a little bit. On top of all my searching pains, I can't even get a hold of the people I need to talk to on the phone, who I know aren't working today, so where the hell are they when they know I am calling this week (actually, it's not "they", just one person...and my parent's weren't answering for hours....)???

oh, and I purposely left my cell charger at my parent's because I thought i was getting a new phone on the way back to my house, but I didn't, and now I don't have the charger, and now my phone is slowly but surely dying and I can only turn it on for small intervals of time because God-knows when I will get the charger back....

other than that though, the day is relatively good, the house is clean, the kids are happy they aren't fighting....groceries need to be bought, true, but, that's the least of my worries....

I guess I just need to look on the bright side.

It could be worse....

I could have exams.

*shudder*

university vs. high school

so i was rummaging through my stuff today, trying to find a certain note made a long time ago. unfortunately i couldn't find it, but i DID find this interesting thing I must have made when I was pissed off at high school. it's a pro and cons to university vs high school. I don't really know if it is accurate, but it's amusing, methinks:


workload:

• University: usually have 2 or more projects plus the midterm to make up your mark. usually have the whole semester to finish those projects/essays
• HS: tons of projects, labs, tests, ISPs etc, piled on us to give us a "taste" of having "multiple projects at once"

schedule:

• University: you get to choose your schedule, with classes ranging from 8 am to pm, with different classes each week
• HS: Schedule chosen for us, so classes could be at the most inopportune periods, day-in and day-out, all semester long.

Jobs:

• University: if you get a job, you are only allowed to legally work up to 15 hours a week.
• HS: like you can ever get an evening off...

Skipping:

• University: who cares! You can get the notes later, you had to work on that essay worth 50% of your mark...
• HS: Detention! Phone call! Sound the alarm! oh, and by the way, you can't do homework in detention. we don't know why though...

Family:

• "oh, she's in university, she's got lots of work to to, let her alone to do it."
• HS: "hey beetch, come do the dishes, you can't be doing anything important."

Electronics:

• new laptop, new phone plan, new everything which parents/OSAP might be willing to help out with.
• HS: just try getting your bro away from the ancient, shared PC.

Accomodations:

• new place! your rules! they'll miss you so much...what will they do without you? (ie: who'll clean up?)
• HS: "this is my house so you'll do what I say!"; Clean up, even though you seem to be the only one doing so...; They can't wait till you move out...

Teachers:

• University: total oblivion to who you are...
• HS: they know who you are, who your parents are, where you live, where you sit, and how to use that all against you.

Friends:

• Uni: multitude of new friends (or none, if you so wish, total blend into the crowd is possible)! You get to pick who you want to be and hang out with; there are a lot more fish in this ocean.
• HS: You're still stuck with your BFF from grade 4, who turned out to be a total slut/pushover/retard/backstabber...but you can't just leave her, then she'd be a loner...you guys are friends, right? she still has your e-mail and phone number too...

twilight. shudder.

So, I'd pretty much avoided (I guess I really have avoided it) watching the film Twilight for a really long time, and I finally watched it at 3:30 Am this morning.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
is what i basically was thinging the whole time.

OMG, it sucked SOOOO BAD! this is coming from someone who read the already poorly written twilight books series, but the movie was just a gazillion times worse! the acting: horrible (except for carlisle, charlie and esmé. Bella didn't even have enough lines to tell)
basically, I felt like i was watching a soap opera trailer for nearly two hours (btw, I didn't even finish it, and it's RARE I don't finish a movie)

here's the deal, for a movie like that, you need to make it 2 1/2 hours+ to make it any good. with the way they developed belward's relationship, it made me feel as if at any moment he was gonna turn into a controlling bf who wouldn't allow her to talk to her friends anymore and would hurt her if she didn't wear his favourite sweater to school anymore
(btw, Who the fuck did Edward's wardrobe? they should be SHOT IN THE NECK he looked fucking idiotic)

The makeup was bad. they looked like they were pumped full of formaldehyde to keep 'em going, and Edwards peekaboo scruff underneath all the clown makeup was revolting and a total turn off (as IF he needed to shave when the rest of his body is stuck at that age. as IF he grows facial hair anymore in the first place)

THEY SKIPPED SO MANY MAJOR PARTS OF THE BOOK IT DIDN'T MAKE ANY SENSE.
my poor older sister who had never read the book was always confused, and it didn't help that my twilight versed little sister and I were making fun of and commenting the whole way through.
the meadow scene was a fucking disaster. not only was it totally downplayed, the glowing skin looked more like sparkling full-body acne. EEEUUUWWWW.

on the flip side, I like Kristen Stewart, and I think she did well with wat she had, and I think she would have been even better had they given Bella's character any substance at all. (ha ha, the fact that I heard she is a major pot-head makes me like her just so much more)

i totally don't recommend seeing this movie to anyone. of course, i will endure it again at some point later before New Moon comes out; hopefully under the direction of a new director and with Jacob getting a hair cut it will be fathoms better. but anyways, i will finish it sometime, just to make the flow of the two movies better. which of course, means i am totally crazy.